About Art---you know what's really awesome? I love it when I log on here and see someone has gone through all my albums here, and favorited a range of things. My digital art (I know, woefully neglected at the moment), my photography, my modeling work which, for me, is also art and expression. but there's something truly awesome about someone taking the time to appreciate each separate and distinct thing, and I'm grateful for that.

About Modeling-- For anyone who doesn't know, in addition to a million other roles, I'm in graduate school,studying expressive therapy, art therapy specifically.  I chose this program instead of expressive therapy as a whole because of a serious weakness/discomfort with music. Not that I do not appreciate it, and find it very important to my artistic process, but I cannot actually PERFORM it (aka I suck).  But where I found a weakness I also found a strength, that being dance and kinetic expression.  This discovery has a reciprocal relationship with modeling; the more I use my body expressively in dance, the more it informs my modeling, the more I model, the more it informs my dance and so I grow more free with both forms of expression.

For those of you who are watchers on my other page as well, you already know, but I'm back from my modeling hiatus. Ironically enough it seems when you turn in the towel, it sometimes gets pushed back harder than ever.  I've always strove for a life less ordinary, and even ten years ago, could honestly say if I were to breathe my last I had already crammed more living loving and tears into that time than most do in a life's entirety. And that is still true; years later when I look back, I am nothing short of amazed at where I have been, who I have known, and mostly who I have become because of/in spite of those things.  

And so to imagine walking away from modeling, something that allows me to give voice to another part of myself, something that gives me satisfaction and a sense of accomplishment is to bastardize the person I know myself to be.  I will not be diminished by someone so small and when I do decide to throw in the towel it will be on MY terms. I am not anyone other than myself, and whatever my faults may be, I will admit my mistakes and ask for forgiveness, but I will not apologize for the person I am, not creatively, intellectually, passionately or physically.  

Thank you to those who stood by me, offering hands and support.  And for the haters....

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